As you may have noticed, I have chosen my One Word for 2011 as being FISH. (Faithful In Serving Him)
Well, I have been thinking a lot about what that means lately. I think part of being Faithful, and looking to Serve, is choosing to do the right things. Choosing to do what Serves Him, rather than what I want.
Let me give you an example.
But such was not always the case. Once upon a time, when I was very young and still cute, I used to sing like an Angel-fish. I had a beautiful voice. However since then, my voice has abandoned me, and despite all my best efforts, I have never managed to teach myself to play any musical instruments.
Because chicks dig a fish with a guitar, don’t they?
But mostly I fail.
I have just never been very musical.
I am also not very good at leading worship. I have tried a couple of times, and it just never works. It feels awkward, and not really very successful. I know God is in control, and it is not about me, but…
It doesn’t work.
I am however, very good at planning and presenting lessons, and designing Bible studies. I can spend hours in preparation for a fifteen minute session, or do an hour impromptu lesson with no fear or nervousness, and people will say it really helped them to learn more about God.
I think if I spent an hour a day playing the guitar for the next year, I could probably get quite good at it. Possibly even better than some of the worship leaders I have heard. I probably could invest that time into improving my musical abilities.
But it won’t help me to become a better worship leader, I don’t think. I know worship leaders who can use their gift to bring people right into the presence of God. That is what they do with their gift. I don’t think he has called me to do that.
Let us say my musical ability is a 3 right now.
In a year I could make it a 6.
If my lesson planning is a 5, then with an hour a day, I could make it an 8 by the end of the year.
I think God would rather I improved myself in the areas where he wants to use me, rather than in the areas that are just about making myself look/feel cooler. I could make myself into a
guitar-playing fish, but a real FISH would use the time to equip himself for service.
And that what being a FISH is all about.